Many people who were avid followers of my blog sent me emails asking what happened and wondering when I would post again. To be honest, I didn't know what to post about. This last year has been very trying and my writing career has been my main focus.
As many of you know, my mother had a stroke in August of 2010. This rendered her into a nursing home that was absolutely terrible. My father found a nursing home downstate that was much better for Mom, and we moved to be with her.
In December of 2010, we made the big move and settled in the Indianapolis area. I quit my teaching job and spent the next several months unemployed. (Not fun, let me tell you.) My mother slowly became accustomed to her new life, although she wasn't thrilled with being dependant on others. My father and I adjusted to our new place as well. Adjusting to the new place was tough. I spent my entire life in our old house in Hammond. All of my friends were there. All of my job connections were there. Indianapolis was not comfortable to me at all. Plus, I was lonely. But I was with my Mom, which made it all a little better.
Eventually I made friends and I found a job. In fact, I found a job in the hospitality industry, and I love it! It doesn't pay much, but I enjoy getting up each and every day to go to work. This is the first job I have had in my life that I absolutely adore. I hope to stay with this industry and grow into a new career. We'll see what the future brings.
Life suddenly changed for the entire family. We relearned what it really meant to love someone. We taught ourselves how to adapt to change. We relied on God to lead us down the right path and lead us he did. 2011 was our year of change.
In September 2011, Mom passed away. It was unexpected, but expected at the same time. Once again life changed - this time not for the better. Yet, in a time when others would have lost their faith and cursed God, I chose to rely on him for strength. I truly believe my mother is in a better place, and I hope to someday be with her again.
When I first started this blog, I needed it to help get my thoughts out about God, religion, and all the things I wasn't comfortable explaining to my family and friends. I used this blog to come to terms with my upbringing in a cult. I used it to help me decide whether God was even real. I used it to answer my questions about God and faith in general.
I learned a lot writing this blog, and I hope that someone learned from me.
I am in a very good place in my relationship with God. I am no longer scared of what the future brings. After all, God is in charge. I am no longer scared of death. Death will simply take me to where my mother is. No more panic attacks are needed. Life is to be lived to the fullest and worry will get me no where.
So, I am deciding to close my blog... for now. In the future, I may need to vent... or ask for prayers... or discuss religious topics of some sort.
But for now, I am doing good.
Thank you to everyone who has read my blog. I appreciate your support.
Eventually I made friends and I found a job. In fact, I found a job in the hospitality industry, and I love it! It doesn't pay much, but I enjoy getting up each and every day to go to work. This is the first job I have had in my life that I absolutely adore. I hope to stay with this industry and grow into a new career. We'll see what the future brings.
Life suddenly changed for the entire family. We relearned what it really meant to love someone. We taught ourselves how to adapt to change. We relied on God to lead us down the right path and lead us he did. 2011 was our year of change.
In September 2011, Mom passed away. It was unexpected, but expected at the same time. Once again life changed - this time not for the better. Yet, in a time when others would have lost their faith and cursed God, I chose to rely on him for strength. I truly believe my mother is in a better place, and I hope to someday be with her again.
When I first started this blog, I needed it to help get my thoughts out about God, religion, and all the things I wasn't comfortable explaining to my family and friends. I used this blog to come to terms with my upbringing in a cult. I used it to help me decide whether God was even real. I used it to answer my questions about God and faith in general.
I learned a lot writing this blog, and I hope that someone learned from me.
I am in a very good place in my relationship with God. I am no longer scared of what the future brings. After all, God is in charge. I am no longer scared of death. Death will simply take me to where my mother is. No more panic attacks are needed. Life is to be lived to the fullest and worry will get me no where.
So, I am deciding to close my blog... for now. In the future, I may need to vent... or ask for prayers... or discuss religious topics of some sort.
But for now, I am doing good.
Thank you to everyone who has read my blog. I appreciate your support.
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